No trust at all. He thinks I'm lying. Oh yes I'm such a big fat liar.
I got to be the perfect kid, I got to do everything right. All hopes on me. Compare me with better kids out there. Thats all your want from me.
When people treats me well, I'm being suspected. So what am I exactly?
What am I suppose to do? What did I do wrong?
Am I that bad that whatever that concerns me, its never good? So is this me in your eyes? I never do good? Not good enough? Never good enough?
I need to learn to be happy when shit happens.
I can see that its getting hard, but I know God will guide me through this. I believe I can work this out. I want to work this out.
Good thing is that despite all these unwanted situation, I know I'm still loved. You love me thats why you'll treat me this way. Am I right? Thats what I tell myself. Because different people have different ways of showing love. I get it. I have to understand.
I just need some time to accept and adapt.